A McFlurry at 1:00 in the Morning

[dchoneyb916]

A McFlurry at 1:00 in the Morning

Here’s the story: I had a sewer line backup in my house that completely stressed me out. If you’ve ever held your breath while driving 110 mph past the sewer plant on I-295. You will understand the type of stench I had to deal with over the last 2 days. Imagine that smell trapped in a 750 square foot basement...it’s nothing nice! It took 3 different crews, one from Roto Rooter and 2 more from DC Water and Sewer Authority to open my sewer lines. And as I faced the potential of a half inch of murky sewer water slowly spilling into my bathroom, all I could think about was sitting on my bed eating an Oreo McFlurry.

After Roto Rooter left my house saying it was a city issue that DC Water and Sewer Authority (WASA) would be out to fix at 1:00 in the morning, I hopped in my car and headed for McDonalds. I was a maniac. I don’t remember stopping at any red lights! I was tried, frustrated, enraged and in total panic. I got to the first McDonalds and their ice cream machine was broken. (DAGGONIT!) I left South East and headed for the next closest Micky D’s on Pennsylvania Avenue in PG County. Yes, finally I found ice cream—although secretly I knew I would have gone to 10 different McDonalds if I needed to.

This is a prime example of why I am a Life-long Compulsive Overeater. Normally I can keep a level head about these sort of situations, but this time was different. I knew I was in the middle of a “fat-girl-gotta-have-food ‘cause I am stressed” attack—and I couldn’t stop it. In my mind, I saw myself sitting right in the middle of my bed with my legs crossed orgasmicly licking the hollow plastic spoon. It’s as if visualizing it so vividly contributed to my unwavering desire to make it happen. But as I cathartically blog about it, I must say the guilt is gone. In retrospect, it’s humorous. Just another thing that a fat girl did to cope with her momentary stinky reality.

With the guilt gone, all I need to do now is work on getting rid of the calories. I suppose I will go to the gym today.

[Unqiue623]

Well in listening to your last post. I could feel what you were saying. I've been through alot and I tell myself it will get better. After surgery which was April of 08. I have been doing good atleast i think so. I had two fills and with the last visit I didn't get one. I still felt like I was only eating very small portion sizes. the weight was still coming ofatleast that's what the scales says when I come in for a visit. I had to previously have another surgery for another hernia, eating was hard after surgery at first I wasn't able to keep anything down, I was alittle concerned at first but then I got myself together.I can eat now, somedays alittle more and somedays less. I do know that this has changed my life for the better but somedays I feel fat. I must say I had a bowl of ice cream and some chips last week two days in a row even though it was 3 tablespoons I still felt like i wasn't suppose to have it. Is it just me: should I feel bad! I really didn't know. I felt so bad afterwards but I say to myself just treat yourself once but I didn't think 2 days in a row! It's been alittle stressful for me not being able to stay on task or even do alot of moving around out and about due to some pain but overall doing 100% today! I try to stay positive with the changes I'm making for myself but sometime you just need reassurance that everything is going to be alright.

I must say I feel your pain! I get up go to work hard and try to have a normal day what to you know as soon as I get to my truck I have no windows no radio and no tv, yes what else can happen to me I say! Someone broke in my truck and stole everything. Then I had to go back and forward with the Insurance company but I can say they did a good job!
I say to myself "God only gives us what we can handle". I try to tell myself that everyday because I could have went and tried to eat a bigmac that's how I felt at that time. In the end It was all good!I learned from the fear of being over weight again. I know it will take time but your as beautiful as you want to be! And I want to be Fabulous!!!!!!! like the Honey BEE!LOL